I have to say I am utterly disappointed in myself, regarding academic or character wise matters. I have difficulties in triggering my brains to function properly. Now, these dysfunctional brains not only have made me petulant and extremely dejected ( the fact that how it screwed up my Chemistry SPA today), but also putting myself in immense pressure. Sigh, I cannot recount how much I have exclaimed the phrase " life sucks" today. And beyond the shadow of doubts, time is running out.
However, the main agenda of my ranting above is to make an apology to anyone who I have offended or upset in the past few days - especially the days when I was ill. I am sorry for not being able to control my own emotions and let it ran loose, indirectly or directly affecting you with my crude choice of words and my notorious sarcasm. I really hope that all of you will not take this incident to heart as what I have said earlier, my brains are dysfunctional, for now. If you have any harbors about it, please do take note my self-tormenting mechanism has already activated. There is no need for you to start your unhappiness act on me, because the intensity that I torment myself emotionally is excruciating. However, I am not emo, I just take disappointment in myself more seriously than other people.
After what have all happened these few days, I have decided to rest myself well these few days. I need to take time off to reflect, recollect and recompose myself back to the assertive person I was. This suggests that I am going to have a small or possible goals in academic. "Every big thing starts from small" is very true, and very here is not a exaggerated. Friends around me will have realize how ambitious are my goals. I set them, work extremely hard towards them. However in the end, I found it exhausting, which directly to the situation I am in now. Now, I have to do small so I can remain prepared and mentally ready to take on upcoming adversity.
LENGTHY? Yes! I am ranting and letting my feelings off here. All the better if I can talk this over with someone.
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