Misunderstanding.

I swear I am so pissed off during chem lesson. She actually said that she was disappointed in me even though I am the one who told her about this issue. Wtf man, she never asked why and started to condemn my freedom of speech. Yeah, class of cheaters. Another thing is that some despicable assholes in class are proven to be a pile-of-buffalo-dung- that don't have the single gut and sided with Cowardice. You guys are plainly beasts, maybe worse than that. No guts to admit what you all have done, all of your life must be tragic. 

Then after school I saw her and tried to explain, then she said she knew what I meant in class. Wait, confused? Yes, she don't even gave me a chance to justify the clause in class yet she criticized my actions in front of the class even though she knew my intentions all along? Plain irony, it is ME who should be disappointed in everyone involved. 

That totally spoil my day and in addition with my lit test. I was unprepared for this test because I have been having headaches deciding whether to combine or continue my pure sciences. Till now, I don't have the slightest idea of deciding even though I have consulted teachers. I believe I can manage pure sciences but the problem is, can I afford it? I have the time to afford it but the commitments, I am skeptical about it. Meanwhile, I think I am sided with staying pure sciences because I believe my guard will be down if I converted, which I will assure one more A1 if I do, but time gained will be wasted. But combined science will secure time to improve on my languages and humanities, which will perfect my cut off point to below than 9.

Instead..

Ballad ftw. SNSD jjiang. hahahaha

Yoohoo, I don't want my blog to look so stern and melancholic. I want to add some life into it! Soooo, I want to talk about what thing makes me happy!

The first thing that makes me happy nowadays is being on task for whatever targets that I have set for that particular day. Recently, I have manage to be on course. This is incredible because in the past I was easily influenced and disturbed by anything around me, especially GAMES! Now, I only play games during weekends! Wahaha, this seemed to be hard at the start, but it happened anyway. 

The second thing is to eat! Although I'm skinny and small, my appetite become more and more huge as I started to eat more meals in a day! Wahaha, probably because of the increase in stress? Or is it I exercise regularly? No idea which but I appreciate lunch breaks and recess given now.

The third thing is to time where I can have more rest! I try to get 8 hours to sleep each day and I kind of succeed. But my body cannot take this short amount of rest as usually in the past I slept from 10 - 12 hours a day? Hahaha, I don't really have the time now. But sometimes I compromise my sleeping time for work la, hahaha.

I just want to keep my blog alive and updated la, of course the first thing is not the initial. There must be something else right? Hahaha, but it is the one who hurts the most. Okay, here, I wish zuoxiong and weilun a early happy birthday! 

Sadly for those who are reading my blog post regularly, I am a skeptical person when it comes to society. So, most of the time, you will read about my unhappiness with how society is organizing and ya, that's probably it. However, I will try hard to post something interesting and lighten up the mood from time to time ya. Hmm, this is because I don't want my blog to look so mundane and typical, I want to create this blog for the main purpose of reflecting, mainly what I am recking my head on.

And to the Miss, I cannot do anything more for you if you are not willing to reciprocate my slightest compromise that I have made, again and again. Don't use the prerogative that you are assigned by me to your advantage or ignorance. I am going to give up on you soon, really, even though I wish I will not but that is the limit that I can go over to help you. Happy living with your life and don't regret if that happened.

The ballad that has been on my mind recently, search for the translation meaning. Beautifully made, it is an art to listen to it meaningfully.

Underestimated-ideal.

I feel so foolish, to compromise what I want for what I need. I want to discard those overambitious aims in my life, they are suffocating me, I cannot think in the right mind anymore. I want to possess the things that I need back again, cherish them so hard that I won't budge even they forced me to. These words of commitment, I will keep to this promise. I don't want to regret, like what I do now, I want to change this mentality of mine. After all, it is all about perspective and perception. I hate to be an idealogical person, I want to be a down-to-earth person.

All of the above, is what most people think.

We need to think in a different perspective. I realized that society is not a vicious as it seems, it is even worse. Sometimes, my heart swears at the state of society that it is in now. So, now what? Should I keep a sane mind by ignoring these issues or drive myself to a frenzy to tackle these perplexed issues? Who am I or why am I doing the later? It is because everyone is just hiding inside their shells, afraid to expose their real identity to the society. They are overwhelmed by fears, of losing what they really needs for what they really wants. In fact, they are restrictively blinded by social norms, they cannot differentiate needs and wants. This is where the downhill of their life comes in, which I won't elaborate any further.

I may looked as someone who is trying to be philosophical, but really, I know I cannot change the society, but I at least I can convince some of you to think what you really vision your own world. I believe everyone has their own worlds, where time, perception, perspective and people vary from one to another. That is the main reason I choose to pursue the course of Psychology. I want to spread my ideas, daringly. 

Gawd, I just realized Singapore's standard of living is just too high. Which made me pondered what should I do in my future, should I stay or should I go? I figured that I will most probably emigrate with my family to other country where the stress of living is not high there. Nevertheless, I am still stuck here in Singapore for next 10 years.

Time goes by real slow this week, partly because I dislike it. Why you suppose? Just couple of self-expectations not met. It may seems funny or weird to you why am I putting myself just because of those expectations, but Capricorns are mostly high goal setters. It is just a mere coincidence that it is associated with horoscope, which I do not believe in. However I do find this modicum of high expectations important as it consistently improve me in terms of anything you can mention about me. Sure it might be tough or torturous depending how far my expectations can go, I believe it is for a good will and that is what separates what me from all of you. No puns intended though.

Lastly, I would like to mention about that situation in Haiti. I believe many of you have come across this news about Haiti suffering their worse earthquake in 200 years. For your information, even the UN declared that it is the worse disaster faced by them. Nonetheless, the purpose of writing this is to tell you all to dedicate some of your pocket money or even, time to write a simple note of encouragement to them. Look, they do not even use more than 1 US dollar per month or year, they just need that money to repair and rebuild their buildings.Though it may sound cliche, we cannot be insouciant about this incident as we are far more better than them in everything. Character-wise not included.

PS: Seungyeon cuteness ftw.

SNSD won Digital and Daesung award. It makes me happy to watch them taking the award. Woo, soshi jjang.

Hai! Todai I am going to review this anime entitled " Umineko No Naku Koro Ni " since I completed the whole season 1 in 2 days. It has total of 23 episodes in season 1. There should be a season 2 coming up or a continuation from episode 23 since they are now putting are small little special cuts of the show, probably to allow the manga to hasten up. [I just went to search, it has 26 episodes and currently it is ongoing at 23.] 

Synopsis from Wikipedia:

The main character of the story is Battler Ushiromiya, son of Kinzo's second son Rudolf. Battler has not been to the annual Ushiromiya conference in six years due to living with his maternal grandparents ever since his mother Asumu died, and even took his mother's maiden name instead of Ushiromiya. When his grandparents died, he went back to living with his father, his second wife Kyrie, and their daughter Ange, his half-sister. Once on the island, Battler once again becomes acquainted with the legend of the golden witch Beatrice who supposedly lives in the naturally dense forest on Rokkenjima. A portrait of her lies in the entrance hall of the Ushiromiya family mansion, and a puzzling epitaph is written below the portrait. Rumor has it on the island that Beatrice gave ten tons of gold to Kinzo in the past to restart the Ushiromiya family after being crippled in the 1923 Great Kantō earthquake. It is said that whoever solves the riddle of the witch's epitaph will receive the gold and be the next successor to the Ushiromiya family.

Nonetheless, here are the top 3 reasons why you should watch the anime. 

1: Mindfucks.

It screws your mind upside down with ingenious theory and make your mind goes BOOMz if you ever try to figure out the murders. [But you should, it's fun and intriguing]. Just when you think you guess the murderer and understand the whole murderer's plot and moves, NAY, you got it wrong. Access denied, meaning, be prepared to challenge your brain to a new level. Furthermore, you need to memorize alot of characters and this anime takes alot of reference from demons or some other smart theory in history. Preferably I like the " North Wind and the Sun " Strategy, you can google it if you want but it will spoil the fun if you read it up before watching. 

2. Gore. NOT FOR THE FAINT-HEARTED

What can I say about it? I am speechless about the gore and violence in this anime. What movie comes to your mind when you see the word gore? Saw? Yesh! Saw in anime. It just that it is more gruesome and the decapitations are indescribable. I am not afraid to tell you all the murders are horrible since you are going to get used to it anyway. Do you want to have an splendid meal with your closed one body parts? Drink their blood? God, that was the most disgusting part of the show that I have to fastforward till the next part. Furthermore, I watched it at 1 or 2am in the morning.  

3. Philosophical Values

I don't wanna elaborate this cause I need about 20 posts to cover all if I want to. And boys should like the series more. Heh.

By the way, the pictures I took aren't gore nor scary. This is just the surface of the hell you going to receive. Have fun watching! Cause I certainly do.

Yo! My hands are itching to type some lengthy issues now. The problem now is, I do not have really anything to say now. Except for the fact dorky Taeyeon's video that made me smile like nobody business.  

Hmm, I pondered a lot these days and I am still wondering about how my life should go. I am not trying to be philosophical nor emotional here, but I just want to set a dogma for myself to look forward in life. Since life can be burdensome and mundane, but I want to change it. Change to something that I look forward to each day. Still, my expectations of myself keep increasing upon each day and I find myself suffocating my own self.  I want to elaborate more but something is holding me back, I remembered I once quote something similar in plurk. It goes like " Never share your happiness as that is where the hook strikes the hardest ". Not like I am saying whatever I am sharing now makes me feel jubilant.

Nonetheless, I remember I have an strong inspiration after watching Invincible Youth.  It is a half-scripted and a half-reality korean show. Initially, I watch it just because of Yuri from SNSD. However, as I am a small little innocent and always-seeking-for-inspiration boy boy, it influenced me on how we should look on things. The materialized perspective and mindset of ours should be changed. It should be changed to something more intimate, something that sets your mind at ease. Perhaps that is what I have been always searching for, something to let me rest my mind. 

Now for daily stuff, I do not want to kill everyone of my readers with my thoughts. Just went to dinner with my big bro at KFC. We decided to try the new black pepper chicken. Frankly speaking, it does not really taste differently from the regular crispy/original chicken. It is just a puny tiny little bit of hotter than before. Furthermore, it does not have a regular box for the original chickens. The shop gave us a bucket, something in conjunction with X'mas design made by a 10 years old child. It was awkward eating without a container to place your food for 2 people, buddy meal indeed. 

Gawd, I think I should stop now. I do not want to be seen as a person who always grumbles and criticize everything around/about me [ I realized, that's why I decided to stop ]. Looks like tomorrow is another today. Baibai.